Everything feels okay until you see something that's a reminder of what almost was, what could've been, what completely tore you down... I have been okay these last couple of years. Until this very moment.. But it all is a part of the process. Everything has been happening the way it's supposed to with God's timing, and I will continue to have faith in everything happening for a reason. I have to keep pushing, continue to train my brain, and telling myself that everything is going to be Ok.
Although I still get an eerie feeling that I'm still missing something, my heart continues to carry an unfulfilled piece. Something I've been longing for. I'm still grieving. I still hurt. But despite the feelings, I can't help but to be so proud of myself...Because I truly never thought I would make it out of the shadows of my own sorrows. Brokenhearted, I still picked up MY pieces and willingly, put them back together.
You will forever, have my heart. Forever and always, my soul being, we will meet one day and God will be right there waiting to introduce me to you. It will be the feeling and emotional release I'll spend my whole life waiting for. To fulfill my purpose and ultimately be with you. In his beautiful kingdom, I am at peace knowing that you are safe.
The last couple years I've experienced forgiveness. Something I didn't think I was capable of. I also experienced myself develop and demonstrate nurturing characteristics. I've felt myself wanting to love unconditionally.. I guess you could say I'm scared to, and even a doubt that I should stay closed off. But deep down in my heart, my soul, I know that's how I'm meant to love. Unconditionally. Even if there's a possibility that it might end up in disappointment. Even if it might end in hurt or heartbreak.. Because that's what a mother does.. Love, unconditionally.
Happy 2323 Day, I hope you're able to experience unconditional love, like I have.